End of November Entry. Sorta.

I'm way to cold and numb to blog, but here I go anywhere.

Time calls for some catch up, or so it seems to me. November has been a cool month. I spent the first days in the anticipation of my birthday, and went it came it was pretty much what I had in mind: lots of party and good times in London - refer to my album on facebook. Diana surely helped me greatly to keep my joyful mood for a while.

Then complications came. I'm really unhappy with my project. I don't feel like I'm learning anything, and the people I work with are plain horrible. After some arguments and tension at my workplace, I decided to talk to ICYE - off record, and they opened the possibility of allocating me somewhere else. Then I saw all the faces of the people I like in London and thought: "wait, do I really want to leave?." It took me some days and then I decided that I am going to finish my time in here regardless. Anyway, January is coming and a week in Spain with Synove and Fran might lift my spirits a bit. Then, it will be one month before I'm off to the rest of Europe and visit all those wonderful people who live in Germany. I can stand the pressure.

Now I find funny that I feel so cold inside. Less than 24 hours ago, I was in the company of one of my favorite people in the world. It did not snow, neither could I escape work as much, but the time I spent with Vlad made up for all the things that did not go as expected. the challenge now is putting up work, the spirit of Christmas, and all the things I dont fully enjoy. This is what we call "fucking London" while we look around Brixton, freezing and laughing on the irony of our lives and how expensive everything is. One thing is for sure, if you feel slightly miserable, cold increases the discomfort.

I apologize if I didnt make much sense in this blog. The season and the loneliness are getting the best of me.