lunes, 25 de febrero de 2013

This writing business got serious.

This is mostly an update for those of my friends - specially those who live overseas, who still have faith in my writing and may want to know how things are going for me. One of my 2013 resolutions remains finishing my novel, so here we go step by step.

First of all, I'm out of the writer's closet. I mean, I am a writer, and there's no turning back. The first question people will throw to you to is "have you published someting?" No, no, I haven't. That doesn't make me any less of a writer. That only makes me an unpublished author -- which is not terrible for my age. I'll come back to the publishing issue later.

So yeah, by making it public on my first facebook cover of the year, people have become interested. The most unexpected people want to know what I am writing and when I am planning on publishing. Whenever I say the strongest project at the moment is a fantasy novel, half of the people lose interest, but that's ok as the fantasy market has never been for everyone. It is surprising though when people want to hear more about the anthology of queer stories I've been writing -- just today I baptized it "Pride Disguised as Shame: Queer Stories of the Western World". Some people even advised to make it available through Amazon for Kindle in order to reach more effectively an audience interested in these topics. Why not, why not? I'll get the whole world trashing my Mathieu character in "Ne Suis Pas" and maybe the real one will hear about it.
Let's say I finish a work. That's roughly a little more than being half way to get the paperback copy. In Costa Rica, if you want to publish, you need to submit your work to a philologist so that they can check the language, fix coherence and similar. They charge about $1-$2 dollars PER PAGE. That's like a lot of money for a 500 page novel. Then you need to choose a publishing house. I took a workshop on this subject with Evelyn Ugalde, mostly a children's stories author who knows the local publishing business from deep inside, and she practically discouraged all the participants from publishing by subsided state publishing house. When she told us they cover the expenses but keep the 90% of each book sold for a five to six year contract, the whole thing sounded awfully unatractive. My interest in going for a big publishing house fell even lower when she said people had waited for 2 to 3 years just to hear from the editors on whether they are interested in publishing the book or not.
The option left for me is going for a private publising house, where you have to submit your work for approval and on top of that you have to self finance the design and the printing. In average, publishing  500 copies of my 500 page novel would cost me no less than $3000 with 70% to a 100% percent of royalties for each book sold (some bookstores keep up to 40% of the cost of the book) and an estimated overall revenue of $3500-- not that money matters that much to me, but something has to pay the investment and future projects.

As it turns out, writing and having good material is not enough, not in this country. While I find out about other opportunities in Mexico or Argentina for my novel in Spanish, I guess I'll just keep on writing and saving as this whole book project is yet another trip I'm taking. Evelyn said something encouraging though. She said "would you put a price to having your baby, your novel, in your hands and have other people reading it on the bus?" I get goosebumps just to think of the idea, and of course, the pleasure of sharing my world with other people comes very cheaply if I can get it for around $4000.

That's it for today, but I'll definitely elaborate more on the writing process in future posts. Thanks for supporting this dream.

Picture: Map of El Valle Negro or Black Valley. Setting of the first 8 chapters of my fantasy novel.

jueves, 7 de febrero de 2013

Clichés I love vs Clichés I hate

Clichés are unavoidable in our lives.  You seem to build your teenage years around them --the fact that people find them so goddamn relatable make them extremely appealing and hard not to use. Then you grow up and start the quest of defining yourself for real -- that assuming you woke up from the Matrix. During this period, clichés become frobidden, satanized. However, life plays tricks on you, give your story spin offs, and just when you thought you were original, you come to accept that some clichés, if not most of them, are real.

I came to terms with a few. I endorse them 100%. Here are my favorite clichés:

Life is a rollercoaster: Ups and downs. Everybody knows that. I have come to discover life seems like a rollercoaster even if you are not ridding it. Ok, some stages of your life are pretty intense: that's you in the ride. In some others, you have to see how other people suffer, enjoy, laugh, love (I particularly hate just witnessing other people being stupidly happy) while there is nothing, but absolutely nothing going on for you!!! Hey, life will be a rollercoaster for you soon. You just happened to be in the line to ride the cart again. While other people are on the highest part of the ride and with crazy levels of excitement, you are just watching. But it does not mean you haven't been there. It does not mean you won't be there soon.

You have to follow your heart: And I don't turn into Pocahontas every time I believe this. I don't know. Whenever I'm cold and calculating, life turns rather easy and after a while, uninteresting. If I follow a certain path driven by fear of losing ground, I gain little. If I base my decisions on money, I end up losing a piece of soul. I follow my heart and what I deep inside feel is true and then all becomes bliss. Since I follow my heart, my life flows smoothly.

Sometimes you are truly alone because nobody stands where you are: Friends will rain on you with positive vibes if you ever say you are alone. Truth is not even your closest friends can always go with you to the emotional place you are heading. Some things in life you have to do because your heart is telling you so (cliché inside a cliché: Cliché inception?) You may have a lot of loving people around, but if no one understands the loneliness you're going trough in your job, in your every day desicion making, in your room when you turn the lights off, in your head when you cannot convey your thoughts without having people staring at you like you're crazy... then you are truly alone, aren't you?

And here's a few I hate:

Nobody's perfect: Most of people shield behind this to avoid compromise. I mean, it is a given, just as the fact that you breathe. So if you fail, you either keep trying, apologize if you have to, change your methods, do something about it until you can do it. Nobody's perfect: everyone breathes. Same darn thing! If something is inherent to the human condition, you don't need to state it over and over. Flying was not a human ability, but someone bright enough created a machine for that. Limitations only exist in your head.

If it is meant to be, it will be: From my point of view, absolutely nothing is meant to be. Life's what you make of it. I've met 35 and 45 year old virgins who are still waiting for whenever it will be for them. I have met people who don't put any effort in a relationship because if it does not work, it wasn't meant to be. Sure,  like things are supposed to work magically (some do, but that's another hippie chapter and does not apply to relationships.) I'm fed up of people waiting for destiny to figure out all for them when they comfortably sit down and just criticize others that actually do something with their lives.

Embrace your clichés and keep discovering life to see if you end up making new ones. Every day that passes, I'm more fond of phrases like "Perseverance is the key to success" and "dream big" because they are somehow becoming real. I wouldn't mind if that happens. We'll see, we'll see.